Since my miscarriage in April, I have this ridiculous fear that every period I have is really a miscarriage in disguise.
Why? Because the painfulness of my cycles have been miscarriage level pain minus the amount of bleeding. My OB informed me that it might take up to three or four cycles for my cycle to return back to normal. Never in my life have I experienced such horrible, intense cycles as the ones post miscarriage.
-A little history-
My cycles before my pregnancy happened like clockwork thanks to the medicine Metformin. Not to worry, I do not take Metformin for insulin/diabetes control. I take it for ovarian cysts, possible polycycstic ovarian syndrome, and to help manage my endometriosis. After the first six months of taking the medication, my cycles became normal. Before the medication my cycles were sporadic and ovarian cysts occurred monthly.
Sometime in the late 90's, can't remember the exact year, I was hospitalized for severe lower abdominal pain. I remember the day vividly. I was playing in the Gus Macker basketball tournament and my dad was my team's coach. I was on the sidelines waiting to play when suddenly I felt sick beyond belief and had some serious stomach pain. I ran to the nearest trash can to lose my cookies. I had trouble walking upright. My friend's mom told my parents that she thought I had appendicitis. I was rushed to the hospital. They did some rebound tests and a scan, but no pesky appendicitis was diagnosed. My white blood cell count was down and I was very, very ill. I was in the hospital for a week. It was determined that either I had a ruptured ovarian cyst or some sort of lower intestine infection. After knowing what a ruptured cyst and cyst pain feel like, I'm positive that I experienced a ruptured cyst.
In 2004 I was hospitalized for severe lower stomach pain. My appendix was determined to be the possible culprit again until a softball sized cyst was located on the CT scan. The pain was just awful and luckily the cyst dissolved on it's own and no further action was needed. I was so happy that that blasted cyst dissolved itself before surgery was scheduled.
In 2008 I had surgery to remove some endometriosis from my uterus. The surgery was successful at eliminating a large portion of the pain I experienced all the time. For example, there were times when sneezing would hurt me so bad I would want to pass out, bowel movements were excruciating, brushing my belly against the counter or some other object would make me squirmish and some adult activities simply could not be done because of the pain.
-History complete-
It's been four months since the miscarriage and you can say that we are TTC (Trying to Conceive) since we are not actively preventing pregnancy. In fact, we are doing nothing to prevent pregnancy. No luck so far, but that is OK. My body is still recovering and getting back to normal. We welcome the blessing of another pregnancy with open arms and look forward to the day we will be able to meet that sweet little spirit.
